i suffer from being ashamed of myself. i have been writing punchlines for a couple of weeks but nobody knows about them yet. just calling them "punchline" makes me want to punch myself. what if they're not funny enough? or, at all? i mean of course i'm not funny but a girl can dream.
not even my husband knows i've been blogging for one, that's a lot of material i'll have to keep to myself if he knew. two, i never really liked lying. i mean, i'm AWESOME at it but it doesn't mean i like it. (says every woman in at least one point in her life)
i honestly don't know why I can't show it to anyone. i have an idea though: i know my thoughts suck and have no any social bearing at all but knowing THAT and still having the stomach to continue, is unnatural for me, very far from my defeatist attitude. im ashamed of trying.
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